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Saturday, May 30, 2009

srsly. i jus wana die
all my frenships are broken
GONE DOWN THE DRAIN
wad kinda shit person am i?
fuck im such a bitch
i hurt so many so many frens
maybe my cuzz shldnt had saved me ytd
i shld had jus died.
den maybe aft i die
u guys will forgive me?
i dun even noe how to apologise.
srsly.
how i say im FUCKING FUCKING SORRY
for doing all those things to u guys.
i tot my ac life was awesome
i tot wrong
only this year dat i realised
IM SUCH A BITCH
SUCH A LOUSY FREN
DAT I SO SO SO DESERVES TO DIE.


i dunoe how to start toking to u guys.
but if u read this.
pls noe dat im really sorry
i wana apologise.
but i dunoe how to start
cuz i noe u guys hate me like hell now
im really really SORRY

she owned @ 11:54 PM



fuck this screwed up life of mine.

i realised ytd dat i hav no frens to turn to in times of need.

i hav sistas
right. but. i neglected them way too much. i dun tink they will ever forgive me.
i tink things will nvr go bak to the way they are in scgs.
when we are super uber close.
now everything is jus weird.
and its my fault.
and i guess they dun wan me anymore.
i dunoe.

i hav bella.
right. but. i stopped seeing bella for like a few days.
we dun even tok anymore.
i dunoe wad happened.

i hav my sa3 classmates.
right. but. how bout my closest frens in class,
peter and foooo and like flying to china for HOLIDAYYY.
the rest of my classmates?
i guess maybe they dun like me.
i dunoe.

i hav my sc frens.
right. but. they are so far away.
in diff schools.
i dun tink i shld bother em.
i dunoe.

i hav mcp.
right. but. how bout im like an extra in mcp.
im in and im out.
maybe the guys dun even like me too.
i dunoe.

i tink dats mostly it.
i hav no one else.

ytd and tday i realised the importance of FAMILY.


my screwed up life was saved by my cousin.
THANKS CUZZ!
if not i wld had feel off the ledge(?) of the sch backgate and either break some bones or tou po xue liu. wad a sight it wld had been on the headlines.
SCHOOLGIRL CLIMBS BACKGATE CUZ SHE WAS LATE AND FELL OFF IT
!!!!

ytd was also family day.
had tons of fun wif family.
wif my cousins, grandparents, uncles, aunties, doggy and parents!
yea. had so much fun without uuuu yes uuuu.

wad a nice day it was.
i din even tok to u the whole day.
life without u is AWESOME too
cuz i hav my family.

this morn. went CLAM DIGGING wif my cousins again
WAHAHAHA. super fun mans. =)



ive done many fabulous things
fabulously BITCHY things.
and they are all coming bak to haunt me.
yea.
u pangseh sumone.
sumone else pangsehs you.
u wan sumone to forgive you.
sumone else wans you to forgive him.

so much for a vicious cycle.

i noe you hate me.
like to the fact you dun even wana tok to me anymore.
but we've been so long.
i dun wan it to end
not like this not now.
but ive been thinking, maybe it will
its not like i nvr tried.
i guess i din try hard enugh
but den again
everytime its me making the effort
haispu. even tho its my fault
but cant u jus make the effort to forgive me?

ive had enough of making pple smile.
being frenly to others so dat i'll be accepted.
when ur down or angry. i tried to cheer you up.
i had to tolerate all those shit.
i hav my own probs too you noe.
i guess you nvr bothered to see em.
to ask if im okay.

wells. im not.
putting up a smiley front is the only thing i can do to mask it.
fuck the world.
so many pple having on masks.
disgusting.
yea im disgusting.
i act nice
but im not.
i jus wana be accepted
but im not.
i wan frens
but noone wans me
no one likes me
srsly trying is so hard.

im mentally tired.
my legs and arms are aching frm my almost death experience and frm clam digging
they feel like lead. LOL
im so tired
i jus wana curl up in a ball
hide in a hole
wait to die

she owned @ 11:23 PM


Wednesday, May 27, 2009


WHOOOOP!
THEY ARE COMING!


Date: 27th June 2009
Time: 3pm (1 Hour)
Venue: Dragonfly @ St James Powerstation
Ticket Price: SGD$100


Launch Day for Tickets
30th May 2009 (Saturday)@ IMM Atrium (near the Customer Service Counter)
From 3pm till 8pm
Tickets purchased on this day will be entitled to an EXCLUSIVE FT ISLAND Poster. While Stocks Last!Tickets are priced at SGD$100 only and will be available on a First-Come-First-Served-Basis. Cash purchases only.

ANYONE WANS SPONSOR MEEEEEEEEEE?

she owned @ 5:54 PM


Monday, May 25, 2009

DID YOU GET STING BY A SCORPION?

walau. dats the first thing JO said to me when he saw me in my braids tday. hmph.
wad nice fren he is =(
hahahs.
MY HAPPY BRAIDS. =( okay. they kinda all came undone so it wasnt really happi braids. but its okay im gona try again tml!
aft my happi braids came undone. i pulled my hair to one side =P



22 MAY.
RUGBY FINALS
ACJC VS. RIJC

lalala!
dat day was fun fun fun!
i witnesses 9 guys doing pullups tgt
and saw many many frens!
one of these frens included SAID =)
i nvr nvr nvr see him for like ages ages ages.
hahahs
happy 4PERSON 3P/4P photo hahas:


she owned @ 6:12 AM


Thursday, May 21, 2009

some things never change. no matter hard i try.
they remain the same. always dere sumwhere.
i noe they are always dere. popping out when i least expect it.
disappearing when i dun want them to.
its like a game of hide-and-seek
its jus dat its a game i noe i will nvr win.

i tired my hardest. being the one i thought would be enough.
i tried my best. juggling everything i have.
but in the end. they all jus came crashing down.
on me.

i hate those things you noe. but it seems like everyone wana try.
wana try to see me cry

push me to the pits when im already down. are you even a fren of mine?
or rather. do you even take me as a fren?

im sick of insecurities. im sick of stupid things dat i cant even understand sumtimes.
how they came about how to solve em i dun even noe.
i fear to even respond sumtimes. wad is wrong wif me?

why am i so useless without security?
without anyone i can rely on. im a gone case.
dere are times i dun even wana try u noe?
and i dun like ur sympathy but i need it.
like how pathetic is this mans? i dun like it but i need it.
without it i'll be alone.
alone.

with so many things swarming in my head i dun even noe how to act anymore
wad should i do? how should i be myself? why should i even bother?
am i still sane?
there are times i wana jus segregate myself from the rest of the world.
from all of u
how do i noe if any of u is true?
i dun
my useless puny brain doesnt allow me to tink at all.
i cant tell.
i really cant.

i keep having the idea dat death is near
my heart my diet, everything will bring death near
if i were to die its okay. no one will weep
its good to leave this place while everything is still on the balance beam
once everything comes crashing down.
i wldnt noe wad to do anymore.
i tink death is a solution.
NOT.
i wana die. i dun wana die.

i hate myself for being so coward.
i hate myself for being myself.
i hate myself for not being myself.

dere are so many qns i wana ask. but i cant. im jus not bold enough to.

BRAVE AND BOLD.
my foot




do ur like me?
am i ur fren?
if u like me? y dun u guys sit wif me?
do ur actually really hate me for being so slack?
do ur even take me as part of ur?
am i still ur sista?
hav u forgiven me yet?
are u pissed im not in contact wif u?
do u tink im flirting wif u?
srsly, do ur tink im flirting wif him?
am i a girl or boy to u?
do u trust me?
am i an annoyance?
do u secretly hate me?
hav u ever even see me as ur fren?
do u noe how much the things u said to me hurt me?
can i trust u?

can i change?
hav i done my best?
wads wrong wif me?
am a gd fren?
can i be a gd fren?
can i be a sista to ur?
will i do my best?
will i stop slacking?
will i stop being retarded?
will i stop doing stupid things?
will i die?



she owned @ 4:36 AM


Sunday, May 17, 2009

15 MAY

left sch at 110 to go support netball YEA!
played bridge wif jiunyang quoc and okto on the bus =D
and happened to spot a shao snoozing at the back =p

WE WON RIJC yea!
if im nt wrong the score was 81 - 67
MUAHAHHA.
trotted to the mrt stat wif bryan shao yudao stephen aft dat and e took a damn long way sob.
and it was raining =(
hahas. ohwells
stomach was growling so went to KFC to makan wif shao and yudao
the fooo came to meet us dere.
started gossiping abt stuff LOLO.
nt really gossiping la but more like erm....
toking crap =P






zHAHAS. YUDAO'S FAB hairstyle =D
nsk nsk!

16 MAY

national museum trip.
musuem-ed till 5 and went lido to meet mcp to mug
mugged till ard 7 and went to meet bong for dinner =D
i did smth damn retarded hahas. okays nvm.
wanted to eat my HAPPIPU WANTAN MEE
but then too many pple so went to eat LJS!
after dat the bong made me trot wif him ALL THE WAY to suntec

ARCADE. UFO CATCHERS. BURN OUT.
reached home 1130 sleepy mans.
oh and ahaha. bong sent me all e way to fajar.
and by the time he reached jurong east mrt.
no more trains to pasir ris LIAOS.
OHOHOHO.





she owned @ 6:39 AM


Thursday, May 14, 2009

everything is my fault.
ac life is like the best time in my life now.
but
its also one of the worst
i dunoe how this 2 things can occur at the same time
but they jus do

why throw upon me so many things i cant handle
or rather why cant i handle em?
i mean look at others
they can handle em perfectly fine
but me.
im practically the slackest person in the whole wide world
with the slackest subj combi
slackest cca
but im nt exactly aceing anything.
even worse
im lagging behind
way behind

relationships
why give me em
when i cant handle em
im trying to learn
but its so freaking hard
i suck
yea i suck
simple things like this
i cant handle
i cant manage anything
so why throw em all to me?

STRIP EM AWAY FROM ME WILL YOU?

stop lying to urself
stop lying to everyone
u will die if u hav noone
noone with you
i wan em, relationships
i wan em, my precious frens
i need to know
i need to learn
how to keep em
how to not neglect em
how to be a true fren

its cuz im this kinda person
i cant make things work
i cant handle things at all
i cant control wad i do
i cant do a single thing right
its cuz im tayhuiyi
i suck
im really sorry
if i ever hurt you
if i ever let you down
im really sorry
if i ever anger you
if u ever wasted ur time on me

but im trying.
trying to change
trying to be a fren

pls forgive me
forgive wad i've done
keep me as ur fren
and slap me if u can (lol)

she owned @ 9:16 AM


Wednesday, May 13, 2009

13 MAY NE LEARNING JOURNEY
1SA3 TRIP TO PARLIAMENT HOUSE


clive the NE REP (heh) briefing us on the bus

glum glum jiunyang!
contrast wif smiling bryan behind him =p

WE ARE HERE!!!
dats QUOC HAHAS
aiyooo. so childish larh jiunyang and okto
GASP.
WAD IS JIUN YANG DOING AT THE PARLIAMENT HOUSE???
so neway we had security check and had to deposit our bags along wif our phones with em.
so then NO MORE PICS LIAO =(
hahas. after the whole learning journey, went home wif jiunyang.
we two blurheads din noe how to go home =(
so we trotted ard and explored the place and ended up here:

(SAM SAM SAM LOL)


HAHAS. we actually walked frm parliament hse to clarke quay mrt LOLS
took 190 home yea! and started drawing stuff on the bus hahas.
first and last row are drawn by jiunyang! tsk tsk so ugly! heh
mine is the sec row much preetier hahas.
i jus cant draw the clubs lol!
lalala! jiunyang drew a MUSHMUM LOL
AN EMO MUSHMUM!
CAMWHORE CAMWHORE.
cuz huihui got deprived frm camwhoring today due to the bad pple hu confiscated her handphone at the parliament house (sob)
sososo. jiunyang and huihui went to zps to camwhore LOL
sch was jus dismissed and
we looked like retards posing outside gate3 HAHAS










she owned @ 6:26 AM



why shld i be the one to make it work
i've gone thru many things u've nvr seen
actually frankly speaking
u hardly noe a thing
so much so dat i hurt
dat i wana be relieved

cuz u dunoe wad i've done for you.
maybe u nvr gave a damn
why shld i be like a retard hu tries so hard?

so i wana go back
go back to the beginning
where i was jus alone
where i was me myself and i
when life was much simpler
i could handle.

maybe time will pass and u'll realise
all the things piled up done for you.
but maybe it will be too late
maybe they will all drop dead

i wun be like this forever
i wana change somehow

so i wana go back
go back to the beginning
where i was jus alone
where i was me myself and i
when life was much simpler
i could handle.

she owned @ 6:12 AM


Tuesday, May 12, 2009

1SA3 NAPFA 2.4KM!
hahas aft the run, e guys all spammed 100PLUS!


bryan, sebastian, jiunyang spamming 100plus and posing for a pic.
all except jiunyang.
ACTUALLY. i tink he was spamming booze. GASP
TADA E EVIDENCE!
after gulping down 5 CANS
HE KINDA DRUNK LIAOS.
*hmmms. wonder wad happened to him?*

NEWAY.
11 MAY --- MCP DAY OUT!

met fj kj at plaza for lunch and trotted to cine.
CAMWHORING AT PLAZA AND ON THE BUS!






KEEJIA SHOCK TIO FACE!
KBOX was DAMN DAMN FUN.
u throw 9 retards tgt.
add 2 rooms.
2 JUGS OF HONEY LEMON
5 BOWLS OF TIBITS
and u get...

DEAF.

loly. hahas. our singing was super AHMAZING!
trotted to heeren after kbox in search of smth to fill our tummy!

HEEEHEEE. XANOS!

HMMJIA O.o I CROWN (?) HIM THE BEST GUY FREN SINGER I EVER NOE!
KIAN SIANG AND A RETARDED DERRICK IN THE MIDDLE. HAHAS
IM TALLER THAN YOU KIAN SIANG!
MOP MOP MOP THE SHUAIGE
HAISPU. cuz all of us were broke hahas. we trotted to taka for PEPPER LUNCH!
JRK PIC.
WELL WIF A POSED XANOS AT THE BACKGROUND
KEEJIA BEING RETARDED LUHHH
HEEHEE. MOPMOPMOP EZLINK CARD! HAHAS
AND IT WAS ISSUED ON MUAH BDAE! =DDD

hahas playing games after dinner!




Took 190 home! YEA!
wad the bong are weishit and derrick doing on the bus?????





she owned @ 7:02 AM